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Thursday, March 15, 2007

Wah, I got bball at 8,
in the morning,
what an ungodly hour for me.
And I got SUNBURNT from playing bball,
I don't usually get chao ta sailing,
when I get exposed to a lot of sun,
I got chao ta by playing bball,
cause today, the weather was crap,
now, I look like a COOKED LOBSTER.

I think my liver's gonna spoil,
cause on tues, I drank quite abit of alcohol,
then today, I drank a lot of 100+,
tomorrow, I think we'll be drinking alcohol AND 100+,
how nice.
And my throat hurts,
I think it's inflammed or something,
very pain,
so pain until I feel like pulling my gullet out.

I suddenly miss Jiale, Jinle, Bryna, Jaslynn, Kimberly and Weiying ):

Anw, I think Weikee was quite pek cek,
that we got thrashed by qi guai people,
and a stupid guy who think he is damn cool.

I feel so emo nowdays,
I always feel emo during hols.

Aiyah, ever since change to this stupid google acc thing,
I don't know how to manipulate my font.

Just now, had family quarrels again,
I hate quarrels lah,
and I'm not even involved,
so I just went out and blade,
Bladed to my old house the playground,
was around 11,
nobody around, sat on the swing,
when blading alone, it was quite dark,
I really felt as if I was walking a lonely road,
but then got God beside me (:
What a day.

Sometimes, you look at others,
and ask yourself,
how come they are so strong yet you're not,
you told yourself not to cry,
but you still do.
Sometimes, you just want to run away,
and pretend everything's alright.

Since young, I've always been dreaming about a perfect world,
like a world without crime, stress, all that crap,
a world which everybody works for each other,
like you go to a supermarket,
but everything's free,
you just take what you need,
don't be greedy,
and everybody just work for free,
everything's free,
nobody's greedy, how nice it will be.
But then when I first imagined that, I was very young,
so it seems quite childish now.

Everytime, when my life starts to go haywire,
I'll never fail to ask God,
why me.
But then, everybody is also having ups and downs,
just maybe in a different aspect.
The worst part is, pretending everything's fine,
so that nobody will worry.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I want to go NZ with you!
I want to go sailing NOW.

"Who I am hate who I've been"

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Oh man, sounds like me.

`Nobody said it was gonna be easy (: